This time I'm not scared.

so...I'm in love. absolute, positive, no doubt about it love. and i've never felt happier, nor been happier and i've never felt so clean.

God. Is. Amazing.



i went to a Just for Jesus concert type dealio today, and personally, this skit broke me down and i just started thinking how much i could relate. i think everyone can in a way, but seriously. this is a really great video.

feel the need to share!

I could really use a wish right now.

yeah.
sorry, sorry, sorry. i haven't been blogging.

i made a new friend tonight, he lives in the UK, pretty cool, no? i think so. i want to go to england...a lot.
heck, i want to be anywhere but here right now.

so much, it's so much.

why do we keep coming back to this?

is it so hard to act like I mean something to you? like you care? like you have feelings for me?

Sometimes I wonder if I'm too depressing for some people. Also, I feel very bi-polar a great amount of the time.

I really thought this feeling was gone...guess not.

We're awakening.

"I'll meet my maker to cure of my doubting blood and drain me of the sins I love
and take from me my disbelief I know it should come easily but it remains inside of me it battles and devours me it cuddles up the side of me and whispers it convinces me I'm right."

I adore this song. These are very powerful words, actually. But anyways, I never wanted to doubt God like I have, like I did. It got to the point where I was curious as to whether he was even real or not and that was my breaking point where I had to snap myself out of it.

I prayed, I prayed so hard, This wasn't a "Heal my toe" prayer or something. No, I'd never been so serious before. I prayed for change, in me and in another. I believed and tonight I heard news that the one I was bawling over and praying for, had a break down for God too and realized they needed to change as well. Do you understand how exciting this is for me? Do you? I guess not, but who knows. Praise God is all I can say. He's wonderful and so comforting. :)

"I wanna wake up kicking and screaming. I wanna live like I know what I'm leaving. I wanna know that my heart's still beating."

Yeahhhhhh, so Sheryl and I shared a couple of energy drinks tonight and some candy, so I'm curious as to how long I'll be awake. Hahaha. I might read because reading makes me tired, I'll never know why, it just does. Ha.

I love these.

I'll admit, it was nice feeling like the only one for a little bit. But I guess now we get back to reality and you just stop caring.

So nice.