We're awakening.

"I'll meet my maker to cure of my doubting blood and drain me of the sins I love
and take from me my disbelief I know it should come easily but it remains inside of me it battles and devours me it cuddles up the side of me and whispers it convinces me I'm right."

I adore this song. These are very powerful words, actually. But anyways, I never wanted to doubt God like I have, like I did. It got to the point where I was curious as to whether he was even real or not and that was my breaking point where I had to snap myself out of it.

I prayed, I prayed so hard, This wasn't a "Heal my toe" prayer or something. No, I'd never been so serious before. I prayed for change, in me and in another. I believed and tonight I heard news that the one I was bawling over and praying for, had a break down for God too and realized they needed to change as well. Do you understand how exciting this is for me? Do you? I guess not, but who knows. Praise God is all I can say. He's wonderful and so comforting. :)

"I wanna wake up kicking and screaming. I wanna live like I know what I'm leaving. I wanna know that my heart's still beating."

Yeahhhhhh, so Sheryl and I shared a couple of energy drinks tonight and some candy, so I'm curious as to how long I'll be awake. Hahaha. I might read because reading makes me tired, I'll never know why, it just does. Ha.