when you love somebody it's hard to think about anything but to breathe

finally! i've fixed my blog to how i'd like it! it only took a matter of days trying to figure it out again...ha.
i have a busy day ahead of me that consists of cleaning, washing clothes, showering, and hair dying. not my own, so wish me luck. also, wish Mary luck because i really don't want it turning out bad. then i have the ever-rare birthday party to go to. sounding like a good day though. except for the fact that i've developed this constant headache, joy.
on a side note, i'm absolutely in every way in love with my very best friend. i think i randomly realize what good he's done me and how i wouldn't be the same without him. i mean, granted, we have definitely had our highs and lows but i think we always come out better. and without God we wouldn't be anywhere.
speaking of which...if this is going to be an offcial "up to date" post, i have to include him because he's done some pretty great stuff lately. i've found him talking to me more and more when i try and overcome things.
i won't go into detail but i've been thinking about breaking some things off and all i kept hearing was "hold on. it's just a little longer, i know you can make it. trust me." and so i did, and i could tell human emotions weren't telling me that because my human emotions were NOT thinking i could hold on. anywho, so the other day i was just grumbling in my head and something happened and suddenly all i could hear was "you made it. you held on and this is your reward."
i dunno, i guess what i'm saying is that trusting God is such a hard thing when you're scared and insecure about everything but it's worth it in the end.

anyway, that's it.