S P A C E.

why don't we go someplace only we know

let's talk about nostalgia. it's been creeping on me lately but today it just punched me in the face and this, my friends, is why.

yeah, i kinda have to go see this movie. i always loved and adored winnie the pooh, he was my favorite.

i mean, doesn't that just make you smile? haha.

nostagia = over.

on a side note, i'm super excited for the winter jam tomorrow night. i get to spend the day at the boardwalk with the most amazing people ever ( minus the boyfriend:( ) and then go to a concert with 10 artists. seriously, it's gonna be so fun. not to mention the car ride over and back, if we can ever figure it out, will be so fun/funny.

all tomorrow aside, i'm very ready for this week to end though. it's not great, i don't like it, i'm tired of it.

because nostalgia isn't the only thing that can bother me like this, but old feelings too. joy. man, that's just so fun...

i'm trying not to let it get me down, i'm failing, but annnnywho. i have a quote that makes me laugh so i figured i'll share.

"life is 10% what happens to you and 90% what you make of it...unless you get hit by a bus, then life is mostly what happens to you."

hahaha, that's awesome.

valentines day...

was one of the best days I've had and I got to spend it with my best friend. :) I really couldn't ask for  anything more. I love him and that's really all I have to say.
short, sweet, and to the point.

when you love somebody it's hard to think about anything but to breathe

finally! i've fixed my blog to how i'd like it! it only took a matter of days trying to figure it out again...ha.
i have a busy day ahead of me that consists of cleaning, washing clothes, showering, and hair dying. not my own, so wish me luck. also, wish Mary luck because i really don't want it turning out bad. then i have the ever-rare birthday party to go to. sounding like a good day though. except for the fact that i've developed this constant headache, joy.
on a side note, i'm absolutely in every way in love with my very best friend. i think i randomly realize what good he's done me and how i wouldn't be the same without him. i mean, granted, we have definitely had our highs and lows but i think we always come out better. and without God we wouldn't be anywhere.
speaking of which...if this is going to be an offcial "up to date" post, i have to include him because he's done some pretty great stuff lately. i've found him talking to me more and more when i try and overcome things.
i won't go into detail but i've been thinking about breaking some things off and all i kept hearing was "hold on. it's just a little longer, i know you can make it. trust me." and so i did, and i could tell human emotions weren't telling me that because my human emotions were NOT thinking i could hold on. anywho, so the other day i was just grumbling in my head and something happened and suddenly all i could hear was "you made it. you held on and this is your reward."
i dunno, i guess what i'm saying is that trusting God is such a hard thing when you're scared and insecure about everything but it's worth it in the end.

anyway, that's it.

forevermore.

well folks, valentines day is rushing here. meaning we're already two months into the year, crazy. i know.
who's excited because i know that this girl right here is! not for any reason other than its just a happy day. love is in the air, yada yada. i don't know my valentines day plans but i'm sure whatever goes down will be fun.

i..don't guess there's much to talk about. just a random little up to date (not even that) post.

hello hurricane, you're not enough.

well...my blog looks like a mass mess of everything. its weird, i dont really like this new set-up. bleh.

so, where to start...where to start?
i havent blogged in so long and i figured i'd start picking it back up because a lots been on my mind lately. mainly spritually.
you know, it really aches my heart to see people whom i knew as such strong Christans not even want a thing to do with God anymore. and i've had a struggle with God lately...it hurts.
we all know about what happened last Thursday/Friday with everyone dying and whatnot. well i guess its time to get out what happened that night for me, huh?

I guess about 10 last Thursday night I started getting really sick, so sick to the point that I threw up and couldnt control my thoughts anymore. it wasnt me. i was not me. i literally felt like i was getting posessed or something along those lines. it was so scary for me and i pray never to experience that again, but it was a shock for me to find out that right as this was happening to me, one boy, who im not close to, but i know through my best friend, shot his parents and one other boy commited suicide. well, anyways, after my breakdown, i guess you could call it, i went outside and just started praying and i felt this sense of peace just take over. but seriously you guys, satan swept over this town last weekend like nothing else. its not fake, this is for real. things like this happen everyday and are happening more and more. its just been laid so heavy on my heart that our King is coming and we're not changing! God is coming soon and our generation needs to stand up and do something about this. its ridiculous. i just pray for change starting now and that we can see change in our...well, ya'lls schools and homes. cause He's coming...and its sooner than we think.

I have an unhealthy obsession with ballerinas and dance. How I wish I could could be one...but my mother won't let me. :( Too expensive. Look at how beautiful and graceful...UGH.

But my next obsession I can actually make come true!



I think you catch my drift. I just need a big distraction right now and Summer is too slow. Anyhoo, I'm thinking about taking lessons and all. I want to be able to say I could play guitar, and after that I'm gonna start taking piano lessons again. I guess I'm getting in touch with my musical side.

I still draw, for those of you who are curious. My mind is just going absolutely HAYWIRE lately and I'm all over the place. Ha.

I wish I could be happy and cheery. I feel like my heart just got stomped all over.

But hey, do this...pleeeeeeeeeeaseeeeeee! http://www.petitionspot.com/petitions/save10thingscampaign/
I find it to be one of the best shows nowadays. I loved the movie and I love the series. I can't believe they would CANCEL it! :(